Friday, April 6, 2007
6 April 2007
It has been a rather conducive day for me,
i did 3 chp of Stats and fallacies. YUCKS.
i am very proud of myself, although i am still angsty
that my comp IS SERIOUSLY WEIRD AND HAS SOMETHING WRONG.
i cannot play any music ARGH
Wellll, u know sometimes i really do hate myself.
For being so short-fused, and easily agitated.
Because i will take it out on people around me, i.e. my close friends. my parents. in particular, my mum and littleboy.
I don't mean that i hate them or anything
It's just that, i will appear to sound damn irritated/very pissed off/bitchy/cold blabla.
And at that moment, i know that it's wrong but then it's like
there's this voice inside my head telling me to "shut everyone out" and "lose my cool"
Right after i threw my temper a bit, the guilt sets in
and that's when i start feeling horrible.
arghhhh.
It's a bad habit.
In fact, this emotional instability needs to be controlled.
Because of this goes on, it will have "repercussion effects" as littleboy said
and people around me start feeling the same way or behave a similar manner,
BY THEN GG.
Next time when u see me losing my cool any minute,
Please tell me to cool down and take 3 deep breaths.
The best thing will be, if u can tell me jokes or make me laugh a little.
Meanwhile, i still feel horrible because i JUST SNAPPED at my mum and littleb0y.
unintentionally.ARGH
P.S. if u can give me some tips on how to control my disgusting temper, do tell me aye?
(although u must give some leeway for pms AND stress!ahah)
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